So I'm sitting here waiting for a few friends to respond to some text that I sent them, and attempting to watch a movie I've never seen for about the millionth time and I had a random Revelation. Now the manner in which this revelation hit me is irrelevant...the only important part of the whole thing is what I've just learned about myself...or perhaps its something I've always known but now I'm just beginning to accept and deal with it. My transparent thought for today is that now...even at 28 (almost 29) years old is that I have a very strong want/need/desire (pick your word) for the approval or confirmation from others. Not just any ordinary person but those people who are closet and most important to me.
I find myself constantly asking people what they they or picking people's brain's for feedback on a particular thing or another.
The question that I now have to ask myself is what do I do with this revelation? Do I stop seeking the approval of others or do I just leave well enough along and keep moving along as I have. I wonder how this need for approval trickles over into other ares of my life and how it affects those areas...
I know that I can consciously identify a few of the areas where this has played out in some not so good ways and in that respect, I am attempting with everything in me to change it...but...there are those other areas that I'm not sure how it all comes together.
This was just a random rant...some thoughts that popped into my head that I wanted to put down on "paper" before I forgot about it or before I just pushed it out of my mind altogether....
Until Next Time...
Love...Peace...&...Poetry
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