Passion....Purpose...Profit...

What's up fam...today's blog topic is pretty straight forward. I was sitting here going over some of my manuscripts and what not trying to figure out what I'm gonna write about and I realized part of my procrastination is in my uncertainty in my future as a writer. I think I'm a half way decent writer but I know and realize that there are those out there who are much more talented and then there are those who have the money to get the super promotion deals and packages. Now to a certain degree none of this real concerns me because I'm not writing for the money. For me it is truly about the art and the pursuit of passion. Yet I often wonder about "artist" who tend to lose their passion in their pursuit of profit. I also beg the question of whether their "art" was really their passion at all. For example I've met poets who won't perform unless they are being paid, now granted I do understand not perform for free ALL the time but I don't see anyone as a true artist of any sort if it's always about the paycheck...but hey that could just be me. Well I think I'm done rambling for now....Love, Peace & Poetry!

Just being me

So originally I was going to write a poem called just being me but then I started thinking and at this moment I don't want to write that because I think just being me encompasses so much more than I could put into a poem right now. However, I guess I just wanted to share a few things that have been on my mind lately.

I'm 26, almost 27 years old. I have a young daughter who means everything and more to me, but there are those days when I just wish that I had a real nuclear family and that her dad wasn't such an butt hole, but then again, I knew what I was getting myself into with that because he'd prefer I had not had her then for me to have had her. So there are plenty of nights when I cry more than my fair share of tears but I'm getting to a place of acceptance. Acceptance of what you may wonder...well there are quite a few things....

1) I accept the fact that I may never be married.
2) I accept the fact that people who do nothing with their lives are still gonna somehow end up on top.
3) I accept the fact that in this world your passion can't always be what you do because the bills don't wait.
4) I accept the fact that I'll probably never REALLY be like those closet to me.
5) I accept the fact that what has happened in the past happened, and the sooner I deal with those demons the better off I'll be.

That's just a few...might post some more later!